... it is to sleep alone. I went this week to some training (2 Days) in Hardy, AR for the Arkansas Downtown Network. We had a group cookout at the Spring river, went swimming and got to meet a lot of people. But after we got back to the hotel and I went to my room, I then realized I would be sleeping by myself. (My DH couldn't go with us and was in Sheridan.)
A few thoughts ran through my head as i realized I would be sleeping alone for the first time since i've been married. "who was going to lock the door for the night?" "who was going to turn off the lights and check everything before we went to sleep?" it was going to be... me.
He wasn't going to be there when i went to sleep and when i woke up. (I know some of you are thinking this is soo sappy and silly). But i was sad. I didnt like the feeling of being by myself now. It was so strange. No one there to pull the covers, or hug you goodnight. How strange it feels be alone after knowing the comfort of having someone there to protect you and hold you. I thank God for marriage and the joys and warmth that it brings and for missing my husband and how happy he (and I) was when i came home today.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
So.... i'm now eating my words spoken on Sunday when I told my parents "he's been sick since friday and I feel fine." I did feel fine except that I hadn't slept since Friday b/c like i said "he's been sick."(sniffing and snoring.) One of those summer colds that you think will pass, only we've determined he got sick from the hospital when we were there visiting on Thursday. Hospital germs must be stronger than regular germs. So.... I did feel fine. Monday was fine. Tuesday was fine. Tuesday night was NOT fine. By 9:30 my head was so stopped up, and throbbing and I could only breathe out of my mouth. So neither of us slept last night. (more sniffing). I realize now this isn't the same as dating. One of you gets sick, the other takes care of it and stays healthy. Now we share the germs. There is no more healthy house to go home to. So I wish I was 10 again and I could just say "circle circle dot dot, now I have my cootie shot."